One day, I found my old woman self
sitting on the edge of existence
when it might be your last Christmas
the decorations feel more beautiful
the gifts more inconsequential
the people more precious
instead of chasing after joy
you sit by the glow of your tree
sipping a warm cup of cider
stirring fond memories
instead of pushing through stores
guilty, stressed, and shamed
you have some hot cocoa
and listen to carols
as the aroma of ginger wafts from the oven
one day, when you find yourself
sitting on the edge of existence
you will realize the truth:
you were always on the edge
but were running too fast to notice
to be here now is the gift
you need only be still
and give the moment your attention
and you will see
when you sit on the edge
it’s always Christmas
“The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.” ― Franz Kafka —